time to fight

Posted: August 9th, 2014 | Filed under: life | Tags: , , , , , , | 7 Comments »

You’re looking at your current struggles as though they wouldn’t exist if you had not sinned that big sin. You are the crowned enemy, accepting your role as punching bag, ever careful not to fight back. You don’t feel like you have a voice because of your guilt. I’m writing to tell you that your guilt has been spotted. Your sense of obligation has been harnessed by another and you’re being taken advantage of. You are prey and your residual guilt is your kryptonite.

You wear your self-condemnation like a necklace because you want to make sure that they know that you know you did something wrong. Years of demanding some outward show of your internal acknowledgment has molded you into a shackled coward. You’re always wearing your Scarlett Letter so that you can use it as protection from those who would accuse. It’s a way to say, “This house has already been robbed.”

You have this idea of  how things should be, but the only way to make it happen is if you and what comes from you is the sacrifice. Where is Jesus in you? Where is His sacrifice? Where is the the one who lives in No Condemnation in the house of More Than Conquerors? Where is your faith?

Maybe you need to let go of your utopic dream where everyone is decent and reasonable. It’s time for you to decorate your walls again. …something to fight for. Stand up and tell them that enough is enough. It’s their lack of faith, not yours. It’s their disbelief in grace that makes them burn you over and over and over. You were ransomed from this end. You are His treasure. It’s not about what you think of you, it’s about what He thinks of you.

You don’t have to be the punching bag for the bitterness of the faithless. People are tangled in their own damage and they’ll drown you in yours if you forget Who’s you are. Fight like you’re protecting what is His.

“Be strong. Take courage. Don’t be intimidated. Don’t give them a second thought because God, your God, is striding ahead of you. He’s right there with you. He won’t let you down; he won’t leave you.” – Deuteronomy 31:6 MSG

time to fight


7 Comments on “time to fight”

  1. 1 Jenny G said at 10:38 am on August 9th, 2014:

    Where I was in a very similar situation to yours nearly 3 years ago, I feel so much of what you wrote about today on a regular bases. So many people can't see past my sins that I feel like I'm tangled in their ever existent, on going disapproval. It goes so far that I doubt Gods forgiveness because they were unable to give it. I was actually talking to some one last night about it. I realized I can forgive any one who has been where I am and over look what ever sort of hypocrite they were during their sin. But I can't seem to see past mine. I can't forgive myself. And just like you said, I wear my sins around my neck and know that every bad thing that happens to me, is well deserved because of my indisgression. I want to get past that and live. I want to move on even if the people around me can't. And yet, I don't want to minimalize their pain by "going on my merry way".
    Another angle is that I don't think I ever apologized to hardly any one who was around me at the time. Once my sin was made known they distanced themselves so far that I barely had a chance to see them again. Some I haven't seen again. Now, 3 years later, do I seek them out? Hunt them down and let them know of my sorrow? Bring up the past? Perhaps it is a gray erea.
    I appreciate what you write. Some times I check my email just to see if there's a newsletter from "grace is for sinners". It always blesses me, encourages me, and urges me to go forward. I'm thankful for your testimony. And any more insight is welcomed.

  2. 2 serenawoods said at 8:28 pm on August 9th, 2014:

    Jenny G.,

    Three years seems like a long time, but it's not. You're still hurting. Maybe they don't need to hear from you as much as you need to tell them that you're sorry. You might be rejected, but you're already rejected. You have nothing to lose.

    We're supposed to be living testimonies. We're salt. Seasoning our world with our eye-witness account of the only One who can save us. We're a "light on a hill".

    The thing that turned things around for me was when I went to scripture to read my death sentence. I wasn't ready to give up on Us. I couldn't let others tell me We were over. I wanted Him to tell me. …He never did.

  3. 3 Jenny G said at 4:16 pm on August 10th, 2014:

    Thank you Serena.

  4. 4 Julie said at 4:43 pm on August 9th, 2014:

    I love it. This is amazing! As always.

  5. 5 serenawoods said at 8:29 pm on August 9th, 2014:

    Thanks, Julie. 🙂

  6. 6 Dawn said at 1:18 pm on August 11th, 2014:

    Good writing, Serena. I love reading your thoughts and words. Keep up the writing 🙂 Thank you for this.

  7. 7 tawnimiller said at 1:10 pm on August 13th, 2014:

    Thank you. I soak your words in. Thank your for always pointing me back to the Truth!

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