“What do you want?” -Jesus; Matthew 20:21
When Jesus asks what you want, He doesn’t differentiate between your physical self and your spiritual self. He just asks. Your answer is what determines who you are. He cares about your physical life because He’s been there and understands what you’re going through. However, He didn’t experience life in a human body to make your own physical life more livable, He came to give life to your spirit. Your new life is at the expense of your physical life. It’s a process that never reaches completion until physical death.
Our life’s purpose is to know God. The more you know God, the more He asks you give of yourself. It’s only when He asks, do you find what you want. Literally and figuratively. ‘Giving of yourself‘ is not satisfied by giving your money to causes or giving your time to missions. It is not sharing the Gospel or preaching an eloquent sermon. Those are great, but they’re acts that you perform. You can perform the acts without knowing God. Therefore, they are not giving of yourself.
If you view the body as something separate from the Spirit, then you can conclude what is yours and what is not yours. That’s where you can find meaning behind the truth that your life is not your own. You can determine what is you and what is not you. The body and the mistakes it makes is not what makes you who you are. The body and the good it does is not what makes you who you are. People who are not believers can out-good believers any day. People who are believers can out-sin people who are not believers any day. Anything that you can do for the sake of the Gospel can be done by those who don’t even believe the Gospel.
Living then, as every one of you does, in pure grace, it’s important that you not misinterpret yourselves as people who are bringing this goodness to God. No, God brings it all to you. The only accurate way to understand ourselves is by what God is and by what he does for us, not by what we are and what we do for him. -Romans 12:3
The only thing that matters at all in this life is the one thing you cannot do. You cannot save yourself. If you cannot save yourself and salvation comes by faith, then you cannot have faith, or believe, on your own. It has to be given to you.
If you can do everything else, with remarkable self-control, on your own and what comes from you is no longer you, then the only thing that is left is your spirit. You can’t even call the spirit yours if you consider that it is either dead in sin or alive in Christ. If it is yours, it is dead. If it is God’s then it is alive. Your life is not your own.
Your old life is dead. Your new life, which is your real life—even though invisible to spectators—is with Christ in God. He is your life. When Christ (your real life, remember) shows up again on this earth, you’ll show up, too—the real you, the glorious you. –Colossians 3:3-4
God gives commands He knows only He can fulfill. This means He gives commands that He knows you can’t fulfill. He tells us to pray continually. I’ve heard people ask how this is possible and I’ve heard even more answers to that question. I believe this is possible because He sent the Holy Spirit to do it for you. Your real self, the spirit within you, is praying continually. When Jesus is talking to you, He ‘s talking to the real you. He’s talking to Himself in you. And the real you, the Holy Spirit in you, is talking back.
When Jesus asks, ‘What do you want?’, He’s conferring with the life He lives through you. If your mouth speaks the words of the Spirit within you, then what you want will come to pass.
Ask in my name, according to my will, and he’ll most certainly give it to you. –Jesus; John 16:23
If you ask for something for yourself, then you will be told that you don’t know what you’re asking.
Jesus responded, “You have no idea what you’re asking.” –Matthew 20:22
The real you, the Spirit within you, does not recognize the language of self and, therefore, does not know what the mouth is asking. You must experience the reality that you are not entitled. You are a servant to something not your own.