The grace of Christ is the only good ground for life. -Hebrews 13:9
Yet, for the well practiced insider, it’s not enough. They strive for wisdom, power, or authority and rank them higher in importance than the nakedness of grace. They want a showcase for what they’ve done. Every act of service is a photo op. It’s as though they’re building a monument of service to display when they’re asked what they’ve done with their lives.
When you ask God for more of Him, He asks you for your worst. He levels your pretense and makes you face reality.
Jesus said, “Everyone who drinks this water will get thirsty again and again. Anyone who drinks the water I give will never thirst—not ever. The water I give will be an artesian spring within, gushing fountains of endless life.”
The woman said, “Sir, give me this water so I won’t ever get thirsty, won’t ever have to come back to this well again!”
He said, “Go call your husband and then come back.”
“I have no husband,” she said.
“That’s nicely put: ‘I have no husband.’ You’ve had five husbands, and the man you’re living with now isn’t even your husband. You spoke the truth there, sure enough.” -John 4:13-18
If grace is the only good ground for life, then one way or another you will be made aware of your need for it. You can’t ignore the damaged places in your life because every time you try to move forward and leave them behind, He’ll bring you right back to them. If you’ve glossed over and given them the seal of ‘redeemed’ even though they’re not, those areas will bleed through your white wedding dress and let everyone know what you’ve been hiding.
You already know what area I’m talking about and you can push it down with all the authority of human stubbornness, but you’ll never win this battle. You can go over this and over this as many times as you choose. Being stubborn and seeing yourself through is not a virtue, it’s a disease. It’s submission He wants, not strength. God doesn’t care how messy it gets and He’s in no hurry.
You don’t look at things the way we mortals do. You’re not taken in by appearances, are you? Unlike us, you’re not working against a deadline. You have all eternity to work things out. -Job 10:4-5
When you finally break down and face your demons you will not be alone. You’ll find the strength and the wisdom you’ve been striving for and it will come in your brokenness. It’s what you’ve wanted all along. Grace is the photo op. Grace is the only thing you should have on display. All of the other things you want to pour out of your life will effortlessly flow from the well of grace by no stubborn striving of your own.