You’re treating Him like you’ve got something else on the side. You put in your time, saying all the right things, so He won’t ask for more later. You don’t even know that you’re talking to Him like someone who doesn’t know Him. He doesn’t answer and you don’t even notice.
But He notices.
He misses you. He can hear you breathe, but you’re a million miles away.
Where did you go? You’re here, but you’re not.
You’ve started to hide things. You haven’t done that in a long time. Especially not from Him.
Don’t you know that He sees everything? He’s not calling you out because He’s waiting for you to remember.
You and Him against it all.
This is how the breakdown begins: you get excited about something else and He becomes a task.
You start to hide, but pretend you’re not holding back.
He’s jealous and you’re too distracted.
You’ve taken so much of yourself back, you’ve forgotten what it felt like to give yourself completely.
But, He remembers.
Where does He go when He can’t reach you? You have something else to catch your attention, but you’re it for Him. You’re all He wants.
“Where do you go when you’re lonely? I’ll follow you.” (When the Stars Go Blue)
He tries to find you in music, but you give the words to something else.
He tries to find your eyes, but your distracted mind makes your eyes lie.
He stays up and watches you sleep. He turns down the moon, lulls you with a soft rain, and kisses you with a gentle breeze.
He’s given you everything. Now He’s just waiting.
Waiting for you to remember “us” and to make your own decision to run from what is taking you away.