I’ve seen many different sides of humanity and am no longer surprised by much. I knew a stripper who quit her job to get married and have babies. I used to work with a girl who was at the beginning of her long and abusive relationship with meth. I loaned a blanket to a homeless friend who set himself on fire. I went on, what I thought was, a road trip only to find out I was sitting in a drug-bought SUV and heading to meet some Italian higher ups in the underground industry. I almost got sucked into a cult because I wasn’t selective enough when picking my friends. But, most of all that was the result of living on my own at seventeen.
I’ve come far enough along to see God’s hand of protection over me when I was completely oblivious to His existence. I was hearing from Him, but didn’t recognize His voice. I was under His wing, but thought I was in a hopeless free fall.
In all that I’ve seen, and of all the people I have met, the worst are the liars who robe their deviance in the name of God. They mask selfishness in piety, and they support themselves with scriptures meant to warn others about people like them.
The Spirit makes it clear that as time goes on, some are going to give up on the faith and chase after demonic illusions put forth by professional liars. These liars have lied so well and for so long that they’ve lost their capacity for truth.– 1 Timothy 4:1-2 MSG
There is nothing worse than a liar, except the liar who loses his compass and believes his own lie. How long will he wander around in the dark, not knowing he can’t see?
“Deliver me from the liars, God! They smile so sweetly but lie through their teeth.” – Psalm 120:2 MSG
How can you trust a business deal with a liar? He’s always looking out for his own interest, but acting like he’s looking out for yours. You get sucked into his practiced sincerity and are forced into behaving like a shrew to get out of the trap. You know you’re in the wrong car when you have to keep grabbing the steering wheel from the passenger’s side.
But, you’re not a shrew. You’re just a girl who got into bed with a liar. And I know that God will guide you back out. Others may scheme and plan in your absence, but God has absolute authority. They can fire their toughest weapons at you, but nothing can destroy you.
If anyone stirs up strife, it is not from me; whoever stirs up strife with you shall fall because of you. Behold, I have created the smith who blows the fire of coals and produces a weapon for its purpose. I have also created the ravager to destroy; no weapon that is fashioned against you shall succeed, and you shall refute every tongue that rises against you in judgment. – Isaiah 54:15-17 ESV
Whoever attacks you will fall as a result. Be honest before God, don’t connive on your own behalf. That is the godless, underhanded way of getting yourself into trouble. Don’t worry about the other person. God is full of mercy and grace and knows how to take care of them while He’s taking care of you. He doesn’t have to compromise Himself to be Himself.
I’ve seen God orchestrate my experiences in such a way that it appears His main goal was my joy. Even in the midst of emotional attacks, financial strain, bouts of low self-worth, and countless learned lessons, He’s still there, orchestrating my joy like it’s the only thing He has on His agenda.
That’s why I am no longer afraid of what I see. Like the neighbor’s vicious dog, life is on a leash and I am not.