“But because God was so gracious, so very generous, here I am. And I’m not about to let his grace go to waste.” -1 Corinthians 15:10
There comes a point when it’s time to move on. Everybody gets to start again. You don’t have to apologize anymore. You don’t have to carry the weight of being the criminal any longer.
We tend to set the people, who we disappointed, over us. We wait for their approval to move on. People are not in the position to be able to judge your heart. They don’t understand their own heart, much less yours. Save that kind of authority for God. If He requires something from you, He’ll bring it to your attention.
“This is how I want you to conduct yourself in these matters. If you enter your place of worship and, about to make an offering, you suddenly remember a grudge a friend has against you, abandon your offering, leave immediately, go to this friend and make things right. Then and only then, come back and work things out with God.” -Matthew 5:23-24
God has not set people up to have authority over your eternal life. When you hang on to your mistakes, thinking you’re being humble and submissive, you’re actually shaming the cross. You’ve been forgiven and set free. God’s grace is not contingent on the forgiveness of others forgiving you. That is between them and God.
Grace is immediate. It’s not up to you or anyone else, it’s just a fact. You may never catch up to God on this one, but don’t purposely stay in the crap because you think you owe that much.
It’s time to move on. Make today a day when you don’t berate yourself or stand down because you’re not good enough. You may be trying to send a message of humility to the people watching you, but it ends up being a message of defiance to Jesus who makes up for your lack. If you can’t move on into the wide open space of possibility and hope, it’s because you don’t believe Jesus was enough for you. Be free. If someone has a problem, let the story of Jesus answer for you.
…not about to let His grace go to waste.