Losing your innocence is like losing an article of clothing. One less layer between you and the sandpaper of life. You see reminders of your experience in the mist under the street light and you hear it in the cackle behind the seductive laugh of virtue about to take leave.
Losing your grip on integrity gives one less reason to refrain. When a person breaks the barrier of damaging behaviors, it’s easier to pass through the next time. Whether innocence was taken or you gave it, it takes a mountain of faith to believe in a mustard seed of purity.
It’s hard to get past the furrowed brow of disappointed expectation. Shame is the blanket that covers the fresh wound. The eyes darken to the spotlight of dismay as the flesh tries to survive the spill-out of morality. With a blinded spirit, you put on the baggy clothes of disgrace. Trying to stay invisible to the wounded hopes of those who believed in you. However, you cannot get the spirit within you to stop ringing the bell of ‘what if’.
What if, with the morning sun, the new day came with a fresh chance? What if today is a new day and you can leave the sting of yesterday behind? What if today brings a renewed promise?
God keeps renewing the promise and setting the date as today… -Hebrews 4:7
You must remember that sin is inevitable, but the power it has over you is an illusion. The only reason a person would let grass grow under the defeat of their sin and no longer be gaining life and godliness is because they have forgotten that they have been set free.
But if anyone does not have them, he is nearsighted and blind, and has forgotten that he has been cleansed from his past sins. -2 Peter 1:9
Don’t forget your freedom, defeat is not yours no matter what you’ve done. Today is a new day.