I think that people underestimate the fact that we are designed to be in relationship with God. We were made for Him and any substitute is cheap and hollow and we can feel it.
Nothing in the physical world can penetrate the spiritual world enough to alter the Truth. Everything we try to do, noble or ignoble, serves as a distraction. You can get your physical life closer to the veil between the two with love and you can feel the distance with sin.
Our choices don’t separate us from His love, but they do provide us with a competition between flesh and spirit. If we are in touch with our created purpose (to experience spiritual life and connection with God), then, when we go through an experience that separates us from that, it teaches a spiritual difference of life and death. With that separation in mind, we choose life. The law was a band-aid. It dealt only with the flesh. With so much attention put on the physical life, there is no space to focus on the spiritual life. God missed simply being with us, so he made our load lighter and now we can lay on the floor with him and watch the fan spin against a cloudless sky.
Let go of all of it. You’ll still experience life. You’ll still experience death. Stop worrying about getting it right, that distracts you. Stop trying to get your own way, that distracts you, too. Let go of the whole mess. Push your ear up against the door between this life and the next and listen to the sounds of home.
You’re in a foreign country, don’t lay down roots, keep moving and keep getting your feet dirty. Love the people who live here and move when it’s time to move. Be of practical use and sprinkle the seasoning of home on what they ingest with you around. Cultivate gardens with roots and seeds you get from home. Embrace this life with passion and skill knowing all the while that this life is a summer trip. It’s a peace corp mission. It’s a study abroad. It’s a third world country. Don’t make choices that insure your survival in this country you’re visiting. Tourist are aloof risk takers. You’re a tourist with a purpose of leaving this place better than when you found it. You’re here to make a difference and learn and when it’s time to let go, let go and go home.