hidden sorrow

Posted: June 30th, 2012 | Filed under: life | Tags: , | 10 Comments »

Sometimes the highs are so high that it makes the lows devastating. We’ve asked for so much and received more than we asked so we say we’ll let the lows slide. We won’t talk about those. But the lows get so long that we stop talking altogether. We sink within ourselves and become forgetful. We forget where we were going. We forget what it felt like to know.

We forget that we can pray about this, too. God doesn’t divide His grace. Grace, like His love, renews itself every morning. Yesterday’s grace was for yesterday. Today’s is for today.

You don’t have to ration your pain to Him. He can take all of it. He can take your doubt, your forgetfulness, you weakness, and your apathy. He can take anything you dish out because He sees past all that. He sees His you.

Well, now is the right time to listen, the day to be helped. Don’t put it off; don’t frustrate God’s work by showing up late, throwing a question mark over everything we’re doing. Our work as God’s servants gets validated—or not—in the details. People are watching us as we stay at our post, alertly, unswervingly . . . in hard times, tough times, bad times; when we’re beaten up, jailed, and mobbed; working hard, working late, working without eating; with pure heart, clear head, steady hand; in gentleness, holiness, and honest love; when we’re telling the truth, and when God’s showing his power; when we’re doing our best setting things right; when we’re praised, and when we’re blamed; slandered, and honored; true to our word, though distrusted; ignored by the world, but recognized by God; terrifically alive, though rumored to be dead; beaten within an inch of our lives, but refusing to die; immersed in tears, yet always filled with deep joy; living on handouts, yet enriching many; having nothing, having it all. -2 Corinthians 6:2-10

My favorite line: “…terrifically alive, though rumored to be dead.”

You have experienced His grace and became alive in His love, but you still have people who talk about you like you’re still in your sin. You’re terrifically alive, though rumored to be dead. I am one of you. I have an entire community of my old church friends who still think of me as dead. But, I’m not I’m terrifically alive. They think I’ve lost something, but I’ve found something I never had when they knew me. It sets me ablaze.

Don’t you remember the young love? Everything was on fire and reminded you of Him. Don’t get old and tired. You’re still a bride.

I once heard that a quick cure for a winter slump is to wear tanning lotion, just for the summer smell. When you renew your love, you go back to the perfume, the restaurant, the song. Let the younger version of you give you a pep talk.

You’re ablaze, even in your sorrow. You’re ablaze in the low. These lows are here to strengthen you. They teach you practical lessons because you’re still a student. Lows tune you.

Come on. You have today. Do everything you can with the one day you have. Everything is renewed tomorrow, you’ll have everything you need then.

Don’t be afraid—you’re not going to be embarrassed. Don’t hold back—you’re not going to come up short. You’ll forget all about the humiliations of your youth…-Isaiah 54:3-4



10 Comments on “hidden sorrow”

  1. 1 @maryjohess said at 8:48 am on June 30th, 2012:

    Beautiful post, as always. Your writing is amazing.
    Have a wonderful weekend!
    My recent post what is faith | help my unbelief

  2. 2 serenawoods said at 8:04 pm on July 16th, 2012:

    thank you, Mary. 🙂

  3. 3 Shannon said at 9:10 am on June 30th, 2012:

    Good stuff! Love those verses and "we don't have to ration our pain to God" oh and "you're still a bride"
    My recent post F/S Eats

  4. 4 serenawoods said at 8:04 pm on July 16th, 2012:

    Thanks, Shannon. 🙂

  5. 5 Tawni Miller said at 10:28 am on June 30th, 2012:

    Wow Serena–I'm constantly amazed at how God uses you to speak to me. It seems as though you know exactly where I'm at and what I'm going through because you are going through it or have gone through it. Thank you for writing and using what you've experienced to share the hope, love and grace we have in Christ! I love you Sister!

  6. 6 serenawoods said at 8:05 pm on July 16th, 2012:

    Tawni, that's awesome. I'm glad my words hit home. 🙂

  7. 7 Jason Wert said at 2:08 pm on July 1st, 2012:

    Fantastic post as always. I just have to be honest and say I think the low's been so dark for so long that my fire's pretty much out. A few embers linger but that's all.

  8. 8 serenawoods said at 8:05 pm on July 16th, 2012:

    You're too strong to completely go out, Jason. Here's to a better year!

  9. 9 dphenix said at 3:51 pm on July 16th, 2012:

    Beautifully written Serena, and an excellent point. I'm so thankful for you and this gift you share.

  10. 10 serenawoods said at 8:06 pm on July 16th, 2012:

    Thanks, Dawn. 🙂

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