“…he played at religion with toy gods. Still, I stuck with him. I led [him]. I rescued him from human bondage, but he never acknowledged my help, never admitted that I was the one pulling his wagon, that I lifted him, like a baby, to my cheek, that I bent down to feed him.” – Hosea 11:2-4
I want you to know that God will never leave you. He has the patience of a Father. He plays with you, even if you are not playing back. He’s holding you, even if you think you’re holding yourself up. He brings you to his chest, even if you have forgotten His smell. He sustains you, even if you can’t see Him.
You are His child and He loves you. He loves you even if you do not love Him back. He’s leading you, carrying you, pulling you in your wagon…
You can turn from Him, get disoriented by false belief, and call for help from false gods who do not answer. You can evoke His anger, but He’s holding back. He’s holding back on account of you.
If you’re still here, having lived through such hell and disillusionment, He has not let you go.
He still loves you. Come back. Follow the sound of His roar of Love in this war of Love and run back home. Your bed is made, your dinner is on the table. Your seat in the child’s wagon is still there.
But how can I give up on you, …? How can I turn you loose, …? How can I leave you to be ruined…, devastated…? I can’t bear to even think such thoughts. My insides churn in protest. And so I’m not going to act on my anger. I’m not going to destroy… And why? Because I am God and not a human. I’m The Holy One and I’m here—in your very midst. The people will end up following God. I will roar like a lion—Oh, how I’ll roar! My frightened children will come running from the west. Like frightened birds they’ll come… like scared doves. I’ll move them back into their homes. God’s Word! – Hosea 11:8-11