It’s interesting how people whose sin has taken them to a temporary place of transition still feel like they’re in control. Delusions make them feel like nothing will happen while they stall. Sin has isolating factors and a person who is isolated is also blind to things they would normally be able to see. Sin causes relational divisions and those people aren’t just frozen in time. Sin causes detachment from reality. Reality doesn’t go away just because you’re not dealing with it. Sin is numbing. When the poison wears off, the pain is unbearable. Sin makes a person not be able to trust themselves anymore, they just don’t know it in the middle of it.
We know that everyone who has been born of God does not keep on sinning, but he who was born of God protects him, and the evil one does not touch him. -1 John 5:18 ESV
This verse tells us that children of God absolutely have, do and will sin. The difference is, they do not stay stuck in it. It’s like the parent who has a toddler that runs off. The parent is watching and is calling his name. If the child doesn’t abandon his course, the parent goes after him. Either way, the child does not continue away from the will of the parent.
A person who is in the trenches of an affair, of a scheme of deceit or some other timeline of falling dominoes most often feels like coming clean is impossible. They’re already in trouble, so what’s the use? It’s especially difficult to come clean when the known details are enough to cause an uproar. If the unknown details are brought up, the havoc wreaked could be too much to bare. It’s hard to come clean when coming clean won’t reverse the damage.
I understand wanting to wait on the inevitable laws of physics. As long as the apple hasn’t landed, then you can still find peace in denial and ignorance. What a cheap form of peace you have settled for. Can’t you warn the people in the apple’s path to move out of the way? Maybe they can catch it. Maybe they can lay down a tarp to catch some of the debris. Maybe they won’t be wearing their best clothes when it hits the fan.
You’re not ruined or lost. You just ran off in the wrong direction. You may be too scared to come home and face the music, but would you rather spend the rest of your life running from the only thing that can heal you? God doesn’t leave that up to you. He’ll come get you.
But, if you have it in you at all, go home. Remember the last part of that scripture I used: God will protect you. Evil will not be able to touch you. It’s going to be okay.