To accept God’s grace, you have to accept a lot more about God than you knew existed to begin with. If your foundation of belief is corrupted by fear and the power of self, you cannot give or receive grace.
In accepting grace, your eyes are opened to the purpose of it all. Grace is easier to accept when you can trust that God is who He says He is. He knows everything and has made everything to work for His purpose. His purpose is Jesus. God did not set up a plan from beginning to end. He set it up from end to beginning. He calls things that haven’t even happened ancient.
I am God, and there is none like me, declaring the end from the beginning and from ancient times things not yet done, saying, ‘My counsel shall stand, and I will accomplish all my purpose,’ –Isaiah 46:9-10 ESV
God’s purpose, Jesus, came first, His plan came after. Your failures do not mess up God’s plan. They are already accounted for. Things happen slowly for us, but they’ve already happened for Him. His words and His purpose never change because they are already accomplished from where He’s standing. What we see as ‘current’ God sees as history.
Still, it’s what God had in mind all along, to crush him with pain. The plan was that he give himself as an offering for sin so that he’d see life come from it—life, life, and more life. And God’s plan will deeply prosper through him. -Isaiah 53:10
Grace gives you your dignity back. Your dignity is rooted in the identity of Jesus. Jesus came FIRST. He’s not a plan B. He’s not an afterthought. He’s not a result of God saying, ‘Fine. I’ll do this.’ God wanted to ‘do this’. So He created us.
When we sin, we have all of hell trying to get us to believe that we have ruined everything. However, sin illuminates the need for Jesus. Hell wants you to believe that you’re only good enough if you’re good enough. God is trying to get you to see that He created you to need Him, therefore, without grace you are never going to be good enough. It’s not about your failure, it’s about the way this whole thing is set up. We’re useless without Him. Would you want it any other way?
I don’t know how else to say this, but I know I have to be more explicit to make you see beyond basic understanding.
God is love and wants to demonstrate His nature in the most powerful expression.
‘Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.’ -John 15:13 ESV
God is only himself. His plan is for us to know him. In order to know Him, in His fullness, we must first know our sin. He sent the law to create a path for Himself. Jesus completed the law and now you have a connection with God that your own shortcomings and failures can’t take away.
Sin is real and it hurts and it’s supposed to. Knowing the truth about God will never take that away, but it will keep you equipped to get back up and grow from it. God uses everything to glorify Him. He even twists sin into something that reorganizes things to bring you closer to Him. The only thing holding you back is your belief. Yes, please try to avoid hurting yourself and the people you love, but don’t let your failures convince you that you’ve gone too far. You can never go so far that He can’t find you.
He feels your belly when you breath. He hears your sobs that you try to hide in your pillow. He knows you want to be strong, you want to be a big girl/boy. He KNOWS. When you fall, He hurts, too. Not because you hurt Him, but because you hurt you.
Reach for Him. Die to what has been lost. And because He is who He says He is, let Him give you your dignity back.