I didn’t die. I lived! And now I’m telling the world what God did. God tested me, he pushed me hard, but he didn’t hand me over to Death. -Psalm 118:17-18
It is not my sin that I brag about. Nobody gets away with anything, but Grace may make it look that way. There is a moment of complete realization when a Christian sins. That moment is between the instant of sin and the awareness of Grace. For some, it’s a split second and for others, like me, it is much, much longer.
Everything happens in that split second. That dark place where you have chosen your own way and are, then, flopping around trying to drop ‘your own way’ like a hot coal. I was a fish who thought she could survive out of the water. I learned otherwise and I’ll never forget what it felt like to not be able to breath.
God formed Man out of dirt from the ground and blew into his nostrils the breath of life. -Genesis 2:7
If God breathed life into me, then I get my breath from Him. I know now that I cannot sustain life without Him. If I am a fish, He is my water.
I tell about my sin because of the gift of Grace that entered the scene and killed it. I am a witness to Grace, not to sin. I will bear my soul so that the contrast of my failure can illuminate the unavoidable light of Jesus.
In my opinion, if I did anything ‘worse’ in my own eyes, I would lawfully be in jail. My story spreads the message that if Grace exists for me, then what Jesus did was for you, too.
I didn’t die. I lived! And now I’m telling the whole world what God did. God tested me, He pushed me hard, but, He did not hand me over to Death!