drunk dial

Posted: November 10th, 2011 | Filed under: God, life | Tags: | 11 Comments »

They say only drink when you’re happy, but she uses her glass to take her way from Him.
One drink, it’ll taste better.
Two drinks, she’ll be fine.
Three drinks goes her judgment
Four drinks and she’s dialing.
Drunk is the stumble back to her heart.
Hate doesn’t exist without love and love is what she can’t make die.
What’s the point in life when you had what you couldn’t lose and lost it?
Question anesthetic became the truth serum and she’s a mess of herself.
One drink too many and she’s at His feet in Heaven’s version of a drunk dial.
When you don’t know where you’re going, you go where you know, and all she knows is Him.
She doesn’t say a word. She doesn’t want Him to know she’s there. Hand up to hide her breath, He’s on the other side of her doubt.
He’s quiet and she knows He knows. This is their ritual.
He doesn’t hang up. It’s the only way she comes to Him.
They say that He doesn’t want a drunk, but He’ll take her any way He can get her.
Her thoughts are stumbling, but she can still hum with the echo.
They say He wants her like she used to be, but He wants her like she is.
You can forget the words and remember the tune.
They say she’s never been further, but she’s right-here far away, not far-away right here.
She’s really lost, not pretend found. Closer than ever. Ugly truth becomes her.
A truth only a Father can love.
He’s the silence in the thunder when the storm rips her open. She runs when she’s sober, goes home when she’s drunk.
Passed out, she reaches for Him like a pillow.
They only want her clean.
Stripped down, she curls up in Him like a blanket.

and He’s the only one who will take her dirty.



11 Comments on “drunk dial”

  1. 1 Traylor Lovvorn said at 11:06 am on November 10th, 2011:

    Powerful, Serena! I love the line "she's really lost, not pretend found."

    My we are so, so good at pretending. We desperately hide because we struggle to believe that He does love us as we are.

    Thank you! I'll be passing this post along.

  2. 2 serenawoods said at 11:17 am on November 10th, 2011:

    Thanks, Traylor. 🙂

  3. 3 Karla Meachem said at 11:23 am on November 10th, 2011:

    WOW!!! Love your style of writing…always have!

    Your post reminds me of the song, Love Them Like Jesus ~ http://www.empoweringchristianwomen.com/2010/10/l

    Just love her like Jesus
    Carry her to Him
    His yoke is easy
    His burden is light
    You don't need the answers
    To all of life's questions
    Just know that He loves her
    And stay by her side

  4. 4 serenawoods said at 11:27 am on November 10th, 2011:

    Those are great lyrics. 🙂 Thanks for sharing them here.

  5. 5 Amy said at 10:14 pm on November 10th, 2011:

    "Heaven's version of a drunk dial" – I love this post and i can picture the scene so well. Painful and beautiful and true all at once.
    My recent post What Adoptees Want Their Parents to Know

  6. 6 serenawoods said at 10:07 am on November 11th, 2011:

    Thanks, Amy. I love writing about the inner world of people.

  7. 7 Robyn said at 2:15 am on November 11th, 2011:

    Hope you dont mind, but I posted this blog on mine. With link to your blog. Love this, and needed to share with my friends the power of the message.
    My recent post Posted from Grace is for Sinners

  8. 8 serenawoods said at 10:08 am on November 11th, 2011:

    Cool, Robyn. 🙂

  9. 9 Charise said at 10:11 am on November 11th, 2011:

    I am so so so thankful He is not afraid of the "dirty" in our lives. I wouldn't be able to know Him or love Him if He was. I love Him so much, thank you for this post!

  10. 10 Jdawn23 said at 11:03 am on November 11th, 2011:

    "They say He wants her like she used to be, but He wants her like she is."
    Wow – What an amazing truth. Only He knows all things. Only He is with us through it all. Only He never changes.

    My recent post The Lord is good

  11. 11 Janelle@GraceTags said at 10:05 pm on November 12th, 2011:

    And He's the only one to take our dirty… wow!

    And boy don't I know this. And I let Him take it… I tell Him it… it has changed our relationship when I could be honest with Him.

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