I get stalled by needing to be approved. I get shushed by those who know how to talk, but don’t know how to Love. I preach grace and am attacked by an entity who hates the message. These attacks come from well meaning (?) ‘believers’ who claim The Way without Truth or Life. I recently read Matthew 10, 11, 12… and I had to write the fight and hope to share some Light so I could get on with my night. I don’t know if it will help, but I write because it might…
Dear Workers, harvest hands, slaves to Love,
There is a great irony here: proclaiming so much love, experiencing so much hate! But don’t quit. Don’t cave in. It is all well worth it in the end. It is not success you are after in such times but survival. Be survivors! Before you’ve run out of options, the Son of Man will have arrived. –Matthew 10:22-23
Where did you go?
Did someone call you a bad name? Did they say you were delusional and ill-fit?
Don’t be naive. Some people will impugn your motives, others will smear your reputation—just because you believe in me. -Matthew 10:17
What did you expect? You’re teaching a message that they don’t want to hear. These big headed, pig headed, pious atrophies producing counter productive fluff to fill the holes their brand of half-baked religion leaves vacant.
When people realize it is the living God you are presenting and not some idol that makes them feel good, they are going to turn on you. -Matthew 10:21
You’re called to preach this message of grace and the truth of how far God will go. Yet, the first sign of ego intimidates you to brandish an ambiguous rubber spatula. Your sheath is for a sword, not a slotted spoon.
Don’t be intimidated. Eventually everything is going to be out in the open, and everyone will know how things really are. So don’t hesitate to go public now. -Matthew 26:27
The message of Jesus draws in the world’s misfits, but pushes the religious into a corner. It’s not ‘the world’ that hates your message, its the sedulous sophisticates and pew babies alike.
Don’t be a pansy, apologizing for the message that burns the soul and calls the flesh to reject or submit. You’re a follower, a disciple, a worker. You don’t get better treatment than the Boss.
A student doesn’t get a better desk than her teacher. A laborer doesn’t make more money than his boss. Be content—pleased, even—when you, my students, my harvest hands, get the same treatment I get. If they call me, the Master, ‘Dungface,’ what can the workers expect? -Matthew 10:24-25
One day the truth will be out and you’ll wish you had spoken up more often. You’ll want to be the one shouting, ‘Yeah!’ to the naysaying, prayer shawl wearing nit-pickers. You’re not a wimp, a pansy looking for your identity in the approval. Are you back to collecting badges for your vest? Who are you trying to charm anyway?
Don’t be bluffed into silence by the threats of bullies. There’s nothing they can do to your soul, your core being. Save your fear for God, who holds your entire life—body and soul—in his hands. -Matthew 10:28
If you write, write for Him. If you sing, sing for Him. If you paint, dance, skip or tell jokes, do it for Him. Not in that stock phrase Sunday school sentiment kind of way. Do it in that, ‘I don’t care if I look like a heathen to the brethren, I’m going to preach freedom until I pass out’ kind of way.
You can compete for your Badge of Good Behavior and proudly parade your Medallion of Modesty, but it’s all busy work designed to keep you from drunken orgies and bank robberies. If you’re prone to STD’s and prison, then, by all means (and please), jump on that ship immediately. However, if you’re sitting pretty on a mushroom of Truth, then share that goodness with the rest of the hungry world and let’s all take a trippy ride on the ‘Jesus is way cooler than lame-a “Leave it to Beaver” train of shackle shucking Truth.
Stop worrying about what the big guys think of you. They may sign your checks, approve your ‘missions’, I get it, but who’s in charge here? If you lose something you can see because you’re speaking the truth, then lose it with a little swagger. Who’s taking care of you anyway?
This is just a little note for you. You know who you are.
A little P.S. from the First Born: If you don’t go all the way with me, through thick and thin, you don’t deserve me. If your first concern is to look after yourself, you’ll never find yourself. But if you forget about yourself and look to me, you’ll find both yourself and me. -Matthew 10:38-39
inspired by a pep-talk from Jesus in Matthew 10.