a dreamer or an idiot

Posted: December 29th, 2011 | Filed under: God, life | Tags: , | 2 Comments »

God calls you to do things that are impossible for you. If you don’t look at Him then your plans will swallow you whole. You’ll get stressed and overwhelmed. You’ll see how impossible it is. You’ll feel the distance between what you want to happen, what is happening, and your inability to jump the rift.

Sit and crunch the cost. You’ll become very aware that you’re setting yourself up for failure. Then God asks, “Why would you plan for failure?”

When you dream and take the steps to make it happen, you have to keep looking at God. You really can’t look at the task. Doing that will only remind you that you can’t do it.

It is faith that keeps you from drowning and you’re not the boss.

I am ready to throw in the towel every day. I have no problem shutting everything down , slipping away, and disappearing. As soon as I hear the word, I’m gone.

I am an ant using my little legs to dig a tunnel through a mountain of stone and it hurts. I’m not alone… one of millions. If ten are digging in one direction, three are standing around, four are telling us we’re in the way, and three are shoveling rocks back in the hole.

My eyes are focused on something beyond the obvious. The obvious is, I’m nobody. I can’t do anything. I’m a flushed goldfish that re-emerged in a rip-current and I’m not big enough to get myself out. I’ll either end up drowned on the beach, food for a bigger fish, or I’ll actually reach my destination.

When you throw in your lot with God, He’ll either show up or not. I’d rather know than always have questions.

I try to do things that I cannot do. I could be an fool. Sometimes I feel like one. But I’m curious. I want to know how everything works. I want to find as many obstacles as possible and figure why they’re there and how to get passed them

One thing I know: The rip current of God’s will is stronger than anything I could do. If I threw in my towel and tossed my toddler toy back where I found it, things would still end up exactly the way they’re supposed to.




2 Comments on “a dreamer or an idiot”

  1. 1 Heather said at 4:08 pm on December 29th, 2011:

    It's inspiring to see how insignificant I am. To realize that in a whisper, life as I know it would be completely different. When I wade through the panic and fear of not being in control of anything it's really peaceful. This is a great reminder to me that God's will is strong, powerful, and will be done.

  2. 2 Elizabeth said at 3:26 pm on January 5th, 2012:

    This is something that I pray fairly often, even though it frightens me: that God would use me in a way that is hugely disproportional to what I am, on my own, able to do. I want it to be obvious that it is God Who is working through me.
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